I wish mum was still here up to now i seem to be making a mess out of everything i have tried to complete mums bucket list for me
- Join some groups and gain some friends instead of paying for them all the time (you only gain friends Glynn when someone is short on cash, that isn’t friends that’s you being used like always.
She was right but who really wants to be around someone that only has three interests all of which you can only do on my own.
- Find yourself a girlfriend who you can either look after or be looked after by because your lonely on your own, you mop around you get used by everyone and you just accept this as being how life is, its not how it is find someone you love being with who regardless of anything someone that makes you happy, learn that not every woman likes gifts or flowers. If you find someone that makes you feel nice inside pursue her she is worth it, she might not like your constant childish mishaps but this is you. you aren’t good at saying what you feel for some reason you are scared of what someone will say, I know you have never sent anyone a valentines gift or card because your scared of what they will say. everyone see’s my Glynn as heartless they don’t see the loneliness and the sadness that i have over the years from you watching others and you always getting the angry response from any young lady that you send something nice to..
- Next year send a valentines gift to a lady you like if they become angry its not your fault,
I promised mum i would find a girlfriend but what do i do with them, i can’t really put her on the mantle piece can i and who will want to cuddle and kiss me who will want to hold my hand who will accept my health problems. and who the hell will live with my memory issues like i do.
I try so hard but still make a mess, I’m chasing air dreams chasing something that isn’t going to happen and wanting to be a part of something just so i can gain friends.
I have fallen for a young lady she is one very gorgeous princess i sent her something and upset her on, she had told me she wasn’t ready for anything now but as usual i ignored it. unfortunately i did what i was good at and roared any chance i ever thought i might have, she is beautiful though she is kind and caring and i bet loving if i ever get a chance to find out.
I know she is busy and i know i don’t always make life easy for her, but if she knew what i thought maybe i wouldn’t feel so embarrassed by my mistakes. She dresses so beautiful i wonder if she realizes that I’d love to find a quiet corner where no one comes and just give her a passionate kiss. To hold her and just kiss her for a very longtime, she will either break my nose or go rather blushed and hold my hand, i think it will be the first though. I enjoy doing the photography for her but wouldn’t do this for another person who asked its only because this young lady as asked I’m willing to help.
Up to now every time i try to arrange to come to a event she is running to take photos i end up needing to do something else then i can’t get for the whole event its getting so annoying and it don’t help that my health is deteriorating at the same time and I’m finding it more difficult to be mobile. this fuking walking stick i have now is becoming a fukin pain the arse I’m never going to get the hang of walking with it to take the weight of my left knee cap.
Mums headstone has been put up today it looks wonderful